Day One of Thirty

I dropped Nicholas off at his friend Banks' house tonight so I didn't have to get up @ 330am to take him on base so they could get on a bus to Louisiana for JRTC. I have no idea why I was kind of scared sleeping last night without him somewhere in the house. My mind was playing major tricks on me, for some reason I swore I was smelling something burning and walked around sniffing my house like an idiot. Jordyn is way excited that she gets to sleep with Mommy for a month! She loves my bed and also loves taking over my television. It is really quiet so far and I love it, we shall she how long I can deal with it. I have one week until I start my Master Cleanse and 2 a day cardio session work outs. I decided to wait until Nicholas was gone because I wont have to cook nearly as much and the temptation will be easier to ignore. It's time to shed some lbs, cleanse my system, get into a regular work out routine and re-wire my eating habits. Now that I am 25 the lbs are coming on easy and harder coming off. Yesterday it snowed enough for Jordyn to go outside and play in it. All she wanted to do was make snow angels so the snow could be pretty. She didn't care that her fingers were purple and her nose was red! She said it was the best day of her life in TN. lol. She's funny. We played in the snow twice yesterday and she is sad that I refused to take her out today, but its freakin 14 degrees outside. I HAVE NEVER FELT 14 DEGREES IN MY LIFE THAT I REMEMBER! All my joints and muscles are all stiff, I can feel the arthritis in my shoulder, hip, and knee more so than ever. I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE A CALIFORNIA GIRL! 7 weeks and Jordyn and I will be back! When it started to get colder here I had to ask my husband if he was sure that he wanted to re-enlist for Germany! He comes home and pumps the heat and takes long showers and still cannot seem to get warm. We agreed that Hawaii will be our first choice for re-enlistment! Jordyn and I and all our family members are excited about that! I wish we could fast forward 16 months already. But I cant, one day at a time.

My mom called it...

Every time I talk to my mom she always asks have I heard anything else about Nicholas deployment? I keep telling her, all I know id that they ship out some time in Afghanistan. My mother and my father both served twenty plus years in the Army and both retired so they basically know they stuff. She kept telling, more so warning me that all they need is 48 hours notice. Well Nicholas comes home today and tells me that the company that they are supposed to be replacing in Afghanistan are scheduled to come home this month, YES JANUARY! And there is a possibility if they cannot find another unit to cover the area for three months then it is very possible that they will leave for deployment early, like right when they get back from JRTC in Louisiana. They leave for training this Friday for a month. Okay, yes I am freaking low key because there is just so much stuff to get done in such little time, which will leave room for lots of error. The devil likes to play too much. My minds all over the place. I remember posting about how my husband and I got into an argument because I told him that the last month we should have to pay rent should be February and he went off about how he signed a lease and he cant stay on base blah blah blah... lol Well today he brings it up to me that we have to call our landlord soon and let her know we have to break the lease which is fine because the owners are military and we signed an military clause. Anyway he's all I have to ask my Srgt if I can stay in the barracks for a few weeks before deployment or maybe one of his battle buddies who live off base will let him stay with them until deployment. I just kind of looked at him like "are you serious!" That's the same shit i said to you at dinner on Christmas and you tried to go off. But now that you feel like its your idea then ita ll good. I just had to let it go. He just has a problem with admitting that I am right, which I am most of the time! :) One day he will learn. As long as I let him "think" everything is all his idea than everything will always go my way. Now I have to make a to revise my to do list just in case. Stressed out is what I am.

cabin fever :(

I am in a really stank mood for some reason... I just downloaded Ke$ha's Animal Album. I love it, this is going to have major re-play in the skull candies. She reminds me of old school Avril with a lil Katy Perry and a dash of Lady Ga Ga! :)



o, and I am like addicted to the confessions on www.lipstickalley.com.

:)

Sometimes Mr. Renfrow does the sweetest things ever. This morning after PT he came home to pack the rest of his stuff for JRTC and made Jordyn breakfast so I could sleep a little longer. Before he left he tucked me in tight because he said it was 11 degrees outside and kissed me on the forehead and left back for work. I got up to find Jordyn also tucked in her bed watching cartoons. These are the little things I will miss. I tell everyone all the time he can be the sweetest man ever on earth and he can also be the biggest douche bag as well :) Last night before bed I watched an Indie Film Amreeka. It was nice, I like indie films. You should check it out if you have some time, its the same website I watch all my movies on.

Hooahh

Nicholas got pinned today, he is now Specialist Renfrow. Yay for that. By the time he gets back from deployment he should have the points and be ready to go to the board for Srgt. He has been enlisted for 18 months he went from a private to specialist that quick. The man know how to do his job, and is very proud to be serving in the Army. I'm excited for him, he works hard and deserves. Today he told me that they will be leaving on Friday for JRTC down in Louisiana for a month for some good ol training before he deploys. That time will be here before we know it.

grrrr.

I cannot deal with inconsiderate ass people I fuckin swear. Right about now I cannot WAIT until he is gone for training for a month! This whole spending a lot of time together is driving me NUTS! The noise is driving me, him ALWAYS in my face and everywhere I turn is driving me nuts. His stupid comments are driving me NUTS! Uggghh. Any freakin way. I cooked he didn't eat with us, he was too busy playing poker or whatever online, ON MY LAPTOP because he royally fucked his up! Whatever. Basically, WHATS YOUR'S IS MINE AND WHAT'S MINE IS MINE PERIOD! I'd love for him to come home tomorrow and tell me they are leaving fr JRTC the following day! We shall see.

what would i do without music

I LOVE ALL MUSIC. I listen to the lyrics more so than who the person is or isn't. There is always THAT one song that relates to your life at that particular time, it is comforting knowing that someone some where is or has gone through the exact same thing you are or have. It makes life less lonelier. I wish John Mayer and Me'Shell Ndegeocello could sing the sound track to my life. Their music and voices can take me many moons away. I could honestly listen to music all day long, doing absolutely nothing but listening, feeling and relating. Over the recent years passed I have found all kinds of new artist just by watching mainstream television and shows. Grey's Anatomy, One Tree Hill and So You Think You Can Dance never fail me. Almost every time I tune into one of them, I am googleing words of a song that I heard just to hear it from start to finish and searching for more from that artist. Right now I have been playing Priscilla Renea every night on repeat, her music is totally my style, a little bit of R&B a lil rock, a lil acoustic, a lil alternative. I have just come across an R&B singer by the name of Chrishan and am currently listening to him in my skull candys as we type. I always have ear phones in , it is my way of drowning out the world and letting the music take me away for as long as it can before I am interrupted by my husband or daughter yelling "wife" or "mommy." Such a sweet escape. Today I have been bored out of my mind, and it is freezing outside. Jedidah and cold weather do not get a long. I am from an ity bity city on the water in California and although it is not Hot like Southern California it does have its days in late October- December. Weird huh. I miss the 50-70 degree weather all year long though. I am so over the cold weather here in TN. I have never felt what 18 degrees felt like until I moved here and I hate it with a passion. It makes me not want to get out the bed, better yet get out the house. This weather is making me realize that I am not as young as I used to be. My body, bones, and joints ache. Past injuries I was able to ignore back in Cali are making themselves known. My left knee and left shoulder are so tight and the pain is crazy at times. But hey, I always get carded and told I dont look older than twenty so I will smile, bitch moan and complain and try and take it with a grain of salt. Before I end this quick post because nothing eventful has happened to me today, I was wondering if anyone else got so bored they caught an attitude! LOL mad for no damn reason, I can't even blame it on Aunt Flow because she brought her ass through here last week! I can't stand that red headed broad but I am relieved when she does show her face- because I would be in a world of shock if she didn't show up- if you know what I mean. Oh yeah, today I watched two good movies on line. Yes, I am one of those who would rather watch a movie on line in my warm house on my comfy couch than go to a cold ass movie theater and freeze for two hours. Anyway I watched Lovely Bones, it was a good movie, I wish I knew there was a book before I watched the movie because I would have most definetly read the book before watching the movie. It had a Vanilla Sky feel to it, and yes being a parent, I could relate and I did drop a few tears. That's what parent hood does to a person who once used to shrug the world off, it makes you an over protective, worrying, sensative sun of a gun! lol I will be that. After that I watched Drew Berrymore's first film Whip It. I loved it! I have loved Ellen Page since I saw her in Juno. She is beautiful and I love her quirky IDGAF attitude! Anyway Check these movies and artist out when you get a chance, you will love them!